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A small update for now 
18th-Jul-2014 03:48 pm

Well its been awhile since I posted but I realized that it's time to get my head out of my ass and start again. So, I have an LJ app for my cell (btw the app sucks!).
I am going to try to update my LJ more. I want to shoot for once a day at least, as long as I'm not busy that day. We'll see.
I am going to try and add pictures here. Hope they work.


So yeah. Lots has happened since last posted. Most I rather not share because the people who I care to share with know. No offense intended.


I have finally have manned up and came out as transgender about a year..maybe a little more ago. I have been living full time as a man for 6 months now. Been on hormones for 4 months. Voice is changing all the time, not where I neccarily want it at the moment but it's getting there. I am rarely misgendered at all anymore. I DID have a beard till I shaved it 3 weeks ago, dumb ass me lol It takes forever to grow back damnit. apparently mother nature thinks I should be a bear- at least she spared my ass.... so far lol
I am applying for my name change at the end of the month which is $137. Then as soon as I can I will be applying for gender marker change.
I have been debating CAMH. I really don't like them but it would save me $7,000. I dunno, we'll see.


I feel like strangling people at times. Jesus murphy people its none of your business if I have or want a penis. If I want to share I will. Its kind of rude and crass to ask. Kinda like me asking "hey do you like getting butt fucked?" . Seriously people, common sense-use it please.


Besides ~*Mz Vanessa*~ and her fam and my mom no one uses Rachelle anymore (cause its not my name) and I know ~*Mz Vanessa*~ tries real hard....and no I will not use Rebastian or Richard. haha. <3 You girl :-P
So yeah, only time that old name is used is legal things since its still my legal name. It fustrates me when people maliciously refuse to use Sebastian. I might just use a misgendered name on them next time and see how they lime it. No? lol
Ok. Now lets see if I can upload these pictures...


I believe these are all from April 2014 up to current date. Will post more pictures as they come.


Stay tuned for more posts.


Take care.

19th-Jul-2014 03:20 pm (UTC)
Welcome back! :D *hugs* I was wondering how you were doing. UGH, it sucks that the name change is so much.
19th-Jul-2014 05:02 pm (UTC)
I try SOOO hard too! I'm getting there!
I find with people who haven't known you long it flows easier saying Sebastian, but with my family (ottis, helen.. etc) those that have known you forever and a day Rachelle slips out more.

I'm glad you totally understand though :D Sebastian, Rachelle, Rahbastian... it's all just names that mean my oldest friend ;) A rose by any other name and all that, right? :)
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